Hello dear readers, trolls, werewolves, invisible pink unicorns, and all other imaginary creatures. As usual Mr. Mona has decided to grace the internet with his presence and we should all be in awe. Here is the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ulo7Bg2dJcg
Today's quote of the day: "What's my motivation?!!!"- every distressed actor.
That's what I've been asking myself for about two weeks now. The question itself doesn't bother me, but the answer really has. Simply put, I have no motivation right now. I have no interest in doing much of anything. It's not because I'm simply bored, but rather the brakes have been slammed and I can't seem to start moving again. I want to feel motivated, but I find myself either in states of unhappiness or sheer apathy, and I don't like it. I want something to make me want to wake up in the morning and get out of bed. I want something to look forward to, and right now there's nothing. And by something, I mean something big. Not just hanging with the gang or something. I think it's because I need some kind of crusade to devote my energies to, and seeing that I no longer have it (Or rather I am slowly in the process of ending said crusade) I feel lost. Hence the title: Now what? What's next for me? I need some kind of jolt, and personally I think I need it really fast because I don't like this whole apathy thing. It's really not for me. I need someone or something to really start the gears turning again so I can shine up my armor and seek the grail.
In more practicle news, I lost my iPod to day, which kinda sucks. My only hope is that a train crew member recognizes its mine, because I'm on the same train every day. If not it's not the end of the world. I was thinking of getting an iTouch anyway. I am pissed about the headphones, but oh well, maybe I'll get some luck tomorrow and find my motivation...but something tells me different about that last point. Well lcomment, let me know what you think and watch Jimmy's vlog.
Until Next time: Adieu
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Monday, September 6, 2010
Heart Vs Head (Or why Heart lost) and Award?! For ME??
Good Evening Ladies and Gentlemen and Happy Labor Day!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oMcRmNVlueg
Mr. Mona's vlog is above sorry it's a little late on my part. (Not that any of the 0 people reading this right now really care (Mr. Mona you're an exception)
Today's quote is: "The first step is always the hardest."
To understand any of what I am about to type you need to understand 2 vital concepts.
1) My Heart and Head are locked constantly in an epic battle to see who controls me/my actions.
2) My heart has yet to lose this battle....
Until a few days ago. And really, it's not even a loss, so much as my heart can not continue the fight for the time being. So it's time to see how good my head dictates my actions. It's going to have to be in control for at least the next two weeks, if not longer. So far it's shown some promise. Like the whole idea of not running into a brick wall seems to be working out. I actually like that one, considering I've been doing that for a long time now. (Sadly Hearts wants to keep running just in case we break through (I said it couldn't fight, not that it couldn't give ideas) And the Heart is raising a few other problems the Head simply can't solve right now. (Mainly :How we eliminate loneliness? Which no one has been able to get right.) Head is still working on rehab right now (yeah I took a few hits this week) and how to brace for the storm coming up (We have a plan). So loneliness, much like the economy, is still the giant elephant in the room. I'm sure most of the two people who may read this at a point in time understand what i'm talking about, but if you don't look at the quote: And think Move on....got it, didn't you?
In addtion I won an award (GO ME!) Apparently, The English Department in College thinks I'm really something special so they're giving me an award and a little bit of foldin' money. Kinda cool, and kinda makes me think That I can actually make it in writing. (One issue my head and heart agree on: I can't make it) So it's fun to prove them wrong. Anyway, Go check out Jimmy's vlog and tell him I said hi
Until Next time, I'll be hitting the old dusty trail
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oMcRmNVlueg
Mr. Mona's vlog is above sorry it's a little late on my part. (Not that any of the 0 people reading this right now really care (Mr. Mona you're an exception)
Today's quote is: "The first step is always the hardest."
To understand any of what I am about to type you need to understand 2 vital concepts.
1) My Heart and Head are locked constantly in an epic battle to see who controls me/my actions.
2) My heart has yet to lose this battle....
Until a few days ago. And really, it's not even a loss, so much as my heart can not continue the fight for the time being. So it's time to see how good my head dictates my actions. It's going to have to be in control for at least the next two weeks, if not longer. So far it's shown some promise. Like the whole idea of not running into a brick wall seems to be working out. I actually like that one, considering I've been doing that for a long time now. (Sadly Hearts wants to keep running just in case we break through (I said it couldn't fight, not that it couldn't give ideas) And the Heart is raising a few other problems the Head simply can't solve right now. (Mainly :How we eliminate loneliness? Which no one has been able to get right.) Head is still working on rehab right now (yeah I took a few hits this week) and how to brace for the storm coming up (We have a plan). So loneliness, much like the economy, is still the giant elephant in the room. I'm sure most of the two people who may read this at a point in time understand what i'm talking about, but if you don't look at the quote: And think Move on....got it, didn't you?
In addtion I won an award (GO ME!) Apparently, The English Department in College thinks I'm really something special so they're giving me an award and a little bit of foldin' money. Kinda cool, and kinda makes me think That I can actually make it in writing. (One issue my head and heart agree on: I can't make it) So it's fun to prove them wrong. Anyway, Go check out Jimmy's vlog and tell him I said hi
Until Next time, I'll be hitting the old dusty trail
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